Hey everyone! I bet you’re all like, “Dang, where’d Lindsey go?” Well, I’m here now. Again. I really haven’t had much computer time over the break and they just hooked up my internet in my new room today! That’s right, I moved in with Gina. I’m not an RA anymore. I got my grades from last semester and they weren’t anything to even be remotely proud of. So, I decided to quit the RA thing and concentrate on school. So, anyway…
Once again many things have happened since I’ve last written. I feel like a completely new person. One thing that I want to get out is that I don’t have a crush on anyone. I can always tell when I don’t because I build people up in my mind that I used to have a crush on. I guess to make my brain think I like them again. But today I have realized that I don’t like anyone. It’ll take some getting used to.
Another thing is that I’m kind of depressed. Not really that bad, but… I’m not happy. I always told myself that if I found myself in a situation during my life where I realized I wasn’t happy, I would get out of there and fix it. But I can’t right now. I feel so trapped here in little Tahlequah, partly because of my scholarship and partly because I have no money or car. I had a wreck last Friday, and although it wasn’t a very bad wreck, my little tin can of a car was totaled. So… no car, no money, no job, just a scholarship, a room, and 17 hours of hard classes. Yay. Feel my ecstasy.
But my brush with death has left me feeling very open and apathetic. I’m going to tell people how I feel and not care what they think about it. So Marc, if you’re reading this, hey, I used to have a big big crush on you. But not anymore because obviously, I haven’t seen you in over a year, and I’m not looking for a relationship right now. I just want to be friends, no matter what certain psychos *coughericcough* say. 😀
I feel so much better.
Now… anyway. Hopefully I’ll be updating more and I’ll have a new layout up soon because I got Paint Shop Pro 7 for Christmas!!! Yay!! Thanks Dad! Hmm. Maybe I’ll keep this layout. I kind of like it. Of course, I’ll modify it a bit. I switched to a higher resolution and it looks funny now. It still looks good on 800×600 though. Alright, that’s enough for now. Bye!
Lindsey @ 11:36AM
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