Whew. Finally a chance to relax. I have been going nonstop ever since… well, I think it was last Monday. Yeah. Let’s begin.
First of all, I have noticed that I vary between the two extremes of optimism and pessimism.
Optimism: I drive to NSU the day their offices open. I’m going to get everything settled, get all my references done for my Pomona application, and get the hold off my account so I can enroll this semester. And I get to hang out with Ricky. Yay!
Pessimism: I didn’t get to talk to any of my professors, and the evil evil evil lady at the business office was very rude about that whole “owing them money” thing and says I can either pay the 400 bucks by the 12th or forget coming to NSU. I leave the office and start crying. In hindsight, I should have cried IN the office, but ah well. Call Ricky… he’s asleep, can’t hang out. The fates have conspired against me and I feel like a stranger, shut-out in my own land. Arg.
Optimism: Ricky and I get to hang out that evening! Yay! (Not thinking about the money issue right now.) It’s sort of a non-date, that’s strange… but oh well, who knows what can happen? It would be nice to have a boyfriend. Maybe. Bryan and I have a really nice discussion about “friendly dating” (he says it’s impossible) over a sandwich at the Azalea Cafe. I get ready for my non-date. (I brushed my teeth :D)
Pessimism: Non-date went terrible. Spent the time discussing why we would be horrible for each other and how much he still loves someone else. I remember that I need 400 dollars by the end of the week, and about fifty references or I won’t get into the school of my dreams. I play Voodoo Vince at Alesha’s in frustration, and the stupid game just keeps getting harder and harder. Arg.
Optimism: The next day dawns bright and clear, and I remember that I just really like being friends with Ricky anyway and that if I wanted to, I could always open a gallery. (Long story, but hopeful.) Life is good again. Yay!
The rest is becoming a blur, as memories always seem to do. I learned that I could get a student loan and it would cover the 400, and that my mom was getting her bonus at work and I can get my digital camera. Yay! I got my postal test results back, and not only did I pass, I got a 97.7!! Super yay! I got to hang out with Mosby and Debbie. We went and ate at Del Rancho, which was actually really greasy and not so good. Also there were problems with who would and would not use the phone at the booth. And Mosby spilled pop all over Debbie and I’s side of the booth, and my purse, which he could only laugh at. Leaving Mosby’s house, Debbie and I drove back in the thickest fog I’ve ever seen. It was a bit scary, but really neat. It was like we were driving off into the unknown, only seeing what was directly ahead of us, but not the whole picture. Like life. Let’s say I got a bit philosophical. And the street signs looked like they were floating. That was the coolest part. 🙂
Friday at work was terrible, I did a really good job, but I didn’t have that many tables, and I only made about 30 dollars in tips. Then I got my paycheck for two whole weeks, and it was 26 dollars. The next day I decided it really wasn’t worth it, so I quit. I actually feel much better. I’m not really looking for a job either. I sent in the toll booth collector application, and I should hear something from the postal thing, and other than that, I’m not worried about it. I feel a lot better doing nothing for no money than working my ass off for very little money. Plus I get to do all kinds of nifty stuff around the house. And it’s not really like I don’t have an income, because I’ve been selling a lot of books on Amazon lately, and I drive around with my mom sometimes as her navigator. I earn my keep. 🙂
I beat Voodoo Vince!!! Ha HA!!!! So there.
I’ve been really happy lately. Monday was Alesha and I’s Dante/Milton class, and it looks like it’s going to be really interesting. Of course, I always like English classes. And I found the books for that class and Magical Worldview online for really really cheap. And that’s always good. And today I bought a bookshelf! Yay bookshelf! I’m rearranging my room so it can be beautiful and efficient, and this bookshelf is a part of that plan. But… there were two right hand sides in the box. That really upset me since I was looking forward to it so much, but I went on their website and ordered the left side and it should be here in 1 to 2 days. Sweet. And I’m using Danny’s old scorpion tank as a fishtank. I bought gravel and a plant at Wal-Mart today, and I have a bag of river stones to put in it. Now all I need is a light, a filter, food, and a fish. Or two. Who knows? Alesha thinks I should get a puffer fish, but… they kinda scare me.
I’ve decided not to apply to the University of the Pacific. I don’t really like their Japanese program, and if I didn’t get accepted to Pomona, I don’t think I would enjoy being at my second choice. So it’s all or nothin, baby. And if I don’t get accepted into Pomona? Well, there’s always the gallery.
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