sigh I have so much to say. So much has happened the last few days! I’ve even been forming little journal entries in my head, but I’m still really busy and I have no time to do it now. Just bear with me. It’s coming.

I can see it now… a gigantic crusade of international peace brought on by one heated moment of passionate retribution from nasty comments about my favorite show:

PEOPLE ARE ALL HUMAN!!
I think that was sort of the point of Rich Girls. Ally and Jaime produced the show themselves, so right away that shows you that they are very dedicated in what they do. When I first saw a commercial for the show, I thought it was ridiculous… reality TV at its darkest hour. And then I happened to watch it one day. It’s become one of my favorite shows. It makes me happier just to watch it, even though I have nowhere near as much money as they do. I think it’s because people strive for money in America today. We all think if we could just be a little richer, we would be happier. Because of Rich Girls, we see that no matter how much money you have, we’re still just human: we have problems, we have faults, we have bad times… but we are still alive, we have many things to be thankful for, and we are all in charge of our own happiness. Ally and Jaime have repeatedly said they are thankful for what they have, and talk about wanting to help those less fortunate. Yes, maybe they plan more than they actually do, but haven’t you ever done that? Ally and Jaime are both beautiful in their own individual, spiritual ways. Every person has something that makes them beautiful. The fact that so many people would judge them based on looks alone, and even their attitudes sometimes, just makes me sad. I’m sure that those who would comment about them hatefully have never made a mistake or acted badly in their lives, especially at 18, when you’re just learning who you really are. People aren’t perfect. Just because they’re rich doesn’t mean they have to be perfectly physically beautiful!! Just another reason why I really like the show. And by the way, as far as people go, I think Ally and Jaime are both very pretty.
Ally has an innocence and awe about life that is really refreshing, and Jaime’s range of emotions and how deeply she feels them are probably going to make her a great writer.
And as for their parents and what they were born into: did you get to pick and choose your life and your parents? Obviously not. Nobody does. So being prejudiced against them because they’re rich is unfair.
I know this sounds really corny and touchy-feely, but I just can’t understand why people have so much hate for each other… I just can’t even fathom why people can’t just accept each other for who they are.
I think the girls did a great job on the show. It got ME one step closer to realizing my own happiness, maybe if you open your eyes and give it a chance it can do the same for you.
Posted by: letomoon on January 3, 2004 12:54 AM

Read said nasty comments here.

I think this is going to spawn a fansite.

I am ITCHING again. The vile disease “my-layout-is-not-good-enough-i-must-change-it” has struck once more. Except, I am really really tired. I worked all day today, and have spent the last hour looking at crap on the internet. But I must change. I constantly want my website to reflect who I am on the inside, and I don’t feel it ever measures up. I think I need more content. I just always get hung up on the design part. I think because all the HTML and tables and layering are a lot less confusing than writing about myself.

“It’s a fine day, people open windows, they leave their houses, just for a short while.” – Kirsty Hawkshaw, “Fine Day”

Happy New Year! Yay 2004! Yesterday, work was hellish. There were several occasions when I found myself muttering, “I can’t do this. I wasn’t meant to be a waitress.” But I did make a bit of cash. Still, I never want to go through that again. Must get new job before Valentine’s Day.

At the end of work, we all got a glass of champagne (very yummy!) and after one glass, I was a little shnockered (empty stomach, lightweight…. yes i am a wimp). So then to Paul and Bryan’s! For… Cirque de Soleil. Yes, that’s what we watched pretty much the whole night, amidst the drinking and the talking and laughing and baring of souls and various other body parts. Of course, we watched the ball drop and went outside and shot fireworks at The Time. I got pretty tired after that, so Bryan took me home and we had one of our fantastic talks. A good night, all in all.

And tonight is a Mosby trip!!! So much fun will be had, I’m sure.

One thing about New Year’s, though. It can make me feel more lonely than any other thing or time or place in the world. I love my friends, with all my heart. But there’s just something about it… Picture a crowded room on New Year’s, and the moment comes, and everyone is laughing and kissing and hugging with their significant other (or just a lucky bystander), and there’s me, standing quietly in the middle of it all, wondering what this new year is going to be like with a sort of sad melancholy. I don’t understand it. It’s a strange mixture of loss and hope. Maybe I’m just feeling my mortality, another year gone, another year coming. Whatever it is, it’s a sweet sadness. I think even if I had somebody to kiss and be with I would still feel it.

Perfect song of the day: I Wasn’t Prepared – Eisley (right click to save)

Wow. I suddenly am all aflame with wanting. Some selected courses at Pomona College:
Asian Traditions
Fundamentals of Kabuki: Studio
Japanese Women Writers
Modern Japanese Lit for Science Lovers
Readings in Current Japanese
Sacred Traditions of China & Japan
Martial Arts: Japanese Jiu-Jitsu
Theatre and Dance of Asia
Theatre of Japan
Seminar: Asian American Psychology
Introduction to Classical Chinese
Seminar: Japanese Prints

And this is only a fraction of what they offer. I need to get into this school.

I got a new tongue ring today! It has the Chinese symbol for Long Life on it. Yay! I bought it when I went with Beth to get her belly-button pierced. It’s cute. And I really missed my Betha. 😀

Aww…. it’s so purdy. I heart it.
I updated at my Xanga site if you wanna go read it. Click here. I’m gonna go… pay some bills now. Yeah. By the way, you guys are really terrible about commenting on this site. Way to make a girl feel unloved. If I didn’t have my green pants I might be sad.

Blarby blarby blar. How was everybody’s Christmas? Comment me with present lists. 😀 So lookie! New layout. Yay! I like it because it’s ugly. If anyone saw the paper the other day Becky had a picture on the front page in her cute little Hastings uniform. Aww. I saved it. ^-^ I had a great Christmas. Well, at least I can safely say it didn’t go as badly as I had pessimisticly imagined. Paul! I still have nut (not coconut) cookies for you, and the regular coconut cookies for everybody else at the Howell mansion. I am feeling very sort of flighty today in my thoughts here. Fun. So the new layout I designed the other day on a Taste of Italy cocktail napkin was originally intended to coincide with my gift of a digital camera, and the entries would look a little different b/c I would have daily pictures. But I haven’t purchased it yet and I really got tired of looking at that big annoying Christina eye. I’m still changing a few little things about it, being a perfectionist, and I’m looking through other sites to see if I can find the code for that cool fadey hover link thingie. And watch out for that scrollbar. It’s a doo-hoozy!

Well, I think I’m just going to make the links all pink and underliney when you hover. I’m listening to a recording of a live Judge Jules show in Dublin. It’s 120 minutes long. I’m not really in the mood for dance music, but I don’t have a pre-set playlist and I got tired of having to click new songs.

So I guess while I’m here, I should give you a run-down. Yesterday I went off to my dad’s house, with Debbie as my chauffeur. She got me the cutest purse! And a nifty bead bookmark thingie. So off to father’s for some of the yummiest potato thingies ever. They’re like, stuffed potatoes, and they have cheeses, and cooked shrimp, and seasonings inside and they’re SO GOOD. Adreaian, of course, the perfect cook, made them. And there was some other stuff at dinner too, but that’s all I remember. Presents was fun. I didn’t feel uncomfortable there at all. A little shy, but it all went really well. My stepbrother Scott and his wife Cheryl have two little girls, Morgan and Peyton, that are so adorable!! They were a little shy of me at first but loved me by the time I had to leave! I really don’t understand it. I really don’t like children that much, at least I never used to, and they just really like me. I think because I’ll humor them, and play their childish games. Because… well, I like the childish games too. 🙂

This morning Mosby came by to pick up his PS2. I’m glad he let me borrow it but I didn’t really play it so I was more pleased to see Mosby than sad to see the PS2 go. Plus, that gives me an excuse to trade in all my PlayStation stuff and get more XBox games. At 1PM my mom and I went to Dave and Mel’s, my brother and sis-in-law, to eat MORE food and to hang out with family. The food was delicious, my nephews and niece were adorable (as usual), and I got a really nifty present from my brother. It’s a DVD of the classic Looney Tunes cartoons. Yay cartoons! And Benjamin (my 9 year old nephew) and I played his brand new XBox and watched Freaky Friday, and I played with Hannah (6) and Jacob (5). I guess I have to admit I do like kids. It’s really hard not to love them. They grow on you.

After that a quick stop at my Grandma’s to say hi to some more extended family. My Aunt Lyndia mentioned dessert and so I had EVEN MORE FOOD. I felt really really full. But a good full. Even so, I feel all kinds of pent-up energy and I think I’m going jogging tomorrow. So that’s it! Back to work tomorrow. (Ugh.) I hope everyone has a Happy New Year! Yay 2004!

Heh. I’m really sleepy. So typing is always good. I’ve been reading Duane’s site. All of it. He’s funny. Strange how I seem to be talking in very small sentences but managed to write that amazingly long HTML link (which you cannot see). Ha.

I forgot to tell you something really funny the other day:
Tony and Lindsey on the way to Return of the King
Lindsey (with Exceptional Nose): and then you take the hamster, and… sniff Uh-oh! Skunk smell!
Tony: Oh no! Let’s have a moment of silence.
Lindsey (pausing for half a second): Anyway, so I was…
Tony: WHAT did I just say?! SILENCE!

And… it was really funny. At the time. Because Tony never yells. Hmm. Did I mention that I saw rockconcerthand during RotK? Seriously, Tony, I’m glad you asked me wether or not you should stand up before the movie and ask everyone to turn off their cell phones BEFORE you did it. 😀

Regarding the previous entry, I think it was rather good. It started out as personal thoughts, and then I thought “Hey… this would make a great beginning to a novel.” But by the third paragraph it was obviously going to become a journal entry. It’s odd… if you look close enough, and have an intermediate grasp of literature, you can see the transition from diary… to novella… to journal entry. Fascinating. Let’s all look over it now.

elevator music… Girl from Ipanema

Super.

I made over 100 cookies today. It’s the first thing I’ve ever made from scratch and they turned out really good! They were Jam Thumbprints, which I stole from the Barefoot Contessa show, which consist of butter, sugar, vanilla, flour, salt, coconut flakes, and raspberry jam… in that order. And then some heat. So if you didn’t already know, they’re everybody’s Christmas present! Yay! And it took far more work, time, and muscle than any other present that I’ve ever gotten for anybody. So appreciate them. And remind me next year to just spend money on you. Laura and Duane and Josh P. and Chris Lee came to see me today!! And they were the first recipients (besides myself) of the Magical Wondrous Lindsey Cookies. And they’re still okay! I think. So that’s good. No, they liked them. I’m so happy I actually got to see them. I miss all my friends. tear I love you, dear ones.

Anyway, probably going to be the last entry before Christmas, so… Merry Christmas! And I’ll bring you a full Christmas report when I get back. Joyeux Noel!