Happy New Year! Yay 2004! Yesterday, work was hellish. There were several occasions when I found myself muttering, “I can’t do this. I wasn’t meant to be a waitress.” But I did make a bit of cash. Still, I never want to go through that again. Must get new job before Valentine’s Day.
At the end of work, we all got a glass of champagne (very yummy!) and after one glass, I was a little shnockered (empty stomach, lightweight…. yes i am a wimp). So then to Paul and Bryan’s! For… Cirque de Soleil. Yes, that’s what we watched pretty much the whole night, amidst the drinking and the talking and laughing and baring of souls and various other body parts. Of course, we watched the ball drop and went outside and shot fireworks at The Time. I got pretty tired after that, so Bryan took me home and we had one of our fantastic talks. A good night, all in all.
And tonight is a Mosby trip!!! So much fun will be had, I’m sure.
One thing about New Year’s, though. It can make me feel more lonely than any other thing or time or place in the world. I love my friends, with all my heart. But there’s just something about it… Picture a crowded room on New Year’s, and the moment comes, and everyone is laughing and kissing and hugging with their significant other (or just a lucky bystander), and there’s me, standing quietly in the middle of it all, wondering what this new year is going to be like with a sort of sad melancholy. I don’t understand it. It’s a strange mixture of loss and hope. Maybe I’m just feeling my mortality, another year gone, another year coming. Whatever it is, it’s a sweet sadness. I think even if I had somebody to kiss and be with I would still feel it.
Perfect song of the day: I Wasn’t Prepared – Eisley (right click to save)
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