Ok. Weird, weird dream. It started out in GameStop, but I don’t really remember what happened. Then I was outside, except it felt like a classroom because there were about 13 rows of desks filled with people I knew, and it was night. I was sitting on the ground in front of the desks with some other people, and Justin and Matt were sitting in the back row right next to each other. I heard Justin say to Matt “I really really like Lindsey.” So Matt said, in a really annoyed voice, “If you like her that much, just go for it. I don’t care.” So Justin got really happy and started talking to me, like it was up to Matt or something. Except I didn’t know. I didn’t really think I wanted to be with Justin anymore, and I was telling Shayna about this. So it’s later, suddenly, and I’m in the house on the corner of Baltimore (where I used to live), except it looks much newer and grander, and it’s sort of like a dorm. And next door, where my old house was, there’s a furniture store, and apparently Justin’s dad owns it and Justin works there. So I’m chewing gum and I want to spit it out, but I go outside and try to spit it out, and it gets stuck in my teeth and I’m pulling and pulling on it. While I’m out there it feels really scary and I watch cats roam around from the shadows of the porch. Then I see these crackhead guys trying to break in to the furniture store. One throws a brick and breaks the front door, but it doesn’t make a sound. I run back inside to tell Justin, and he comes out of Shayna’s room naked, except for a towel. Except, now, strangely, he’s a centaur. I just sort of stop and look at him all hurtful, and he sheepishly goes into the back room to put some clothes on. Then I remember and I run yelling, “Justin! There’s someone breaking into the store!” So I run back outside with him after me and the crackhead guy is running away from the store. I yell, “That’s him! He lives there! I saw him come out.” Justin just kind of looks at the guy and says, “Well, it’s not really a big deal. Do you want to kiss me?” Then I woke up.
Strange. Very strange. Especially since I haven’t thought about Justin in a long time. Usually when I haven’t seen an ex-love interest in a long time, and then dream about him, it’s usually all lovey-dovey and makes me miss him. But I just sort of felt this disgust for Justin in this dream. And Matt too. But that goes without saying.
I went to see Bend It Like Beckham with Alesha last night. It was really good. It sorta makes me want to play soccer. You know, I’ve always wanted to, ever since I was a little kid, but my mom wouldn’t let me play cause she thought it was too dangerous. Hmm. Imagine how much different my life would be if I had played soccer. I probably never would have gotten into choir, and I would be really athletic today. And have a whole different set of friends. Ack. I think I love my friends now. And it’s never to late to become athletic, so to speak.
I also seriously fell in love with the guy in the movie. I can’t remember his real name. British guys are just hot. sigh Of course, I’ve found myself being very lustful and wanting a relationship lately. I really don’t think I’m ready, and I certainly don’t logically want any kind of relationship with a guy right now. But I am a hopeless romantic. So everytime I start to think about it, I just cover my eyes and chant the word “celibacy” over and over. It’s kinda funny, actually.
Oh! I got hired at Dickenson. I have crossed over to the Dark Side. Anyway, this is good. It means I’m gonna be rollin’ in the money. Well, sort of. That, and really tired, so I can’t even spend the money I make. That’s okay. It’s for bills and a car anyway. I love driving Shayna’s car! I love the freedom it gives me. But, I don’t like the gas money part and the fact that her CD player skips terribly. sigh It’s really not the same at all as having my own car. But I’m getting there. Slowly. Janea’s really excited that I’m going to buy her car.
Okay, I better go. I have to get ready for work and then stop by Shayna’s on the way and let her hamster run around for a bit. Ja ne!
Edit: Oh yeah, for those that don’t know, Justin is an ex from a year ago. He was the Jehovah’s Witness. And Matt is an ex from not so long ago. He’s a Jewish Asshole.
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