Excuse me when I say, “Wah!”
I hate it when I’m in these moods. They really suck. I suck. Everything sucks. Hence why I hate these moods. I’m not sure why, but I just realized that I am so totally left out. But in a really weird way. Like it’s fate or something. It’s not really so much because of the way I am or the way other people are, it’s just… there. Have you ever felt so alone it’s as if outside of your door, no one else exists? I could walk out right now and not see anybody. Even my mom, if she were here. I would see them, but I wouldn’t SEE them. They wouldn’t see me. And that is true loneliness. And I say this all very factual, because I don’t necessarily feel sad, I’m just observing. And no matter where I go… Hawaii, Japan, I’ll still be alone. My facet of the universe will be forever encaged in the glassy walls of my mind, because there is no true connection.
And at the same time we are all connected… I don’t understand it.
(I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead*
*I think I made you up inside my head)
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