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I’m feeling much better today. ^-^ Partly because I did exactly what I wanted to: I sat outside to read History and listened to The Planets, and partly because Halo is such a kick-ass game. I love video games. I had almost forgotten how much fun they were. It’s so great. Me, Dan, Clint, the Moe Brothers, and the Joshes all pile down in the lounge and play the multiplayer version. I suck the most at it, but they’ve been playing it a lot longer and I’m getting better. Today I did pretty good. I just love playing it because it reminds me of summer. I guess because I always play a lot of video games in the summer. And being in the summer mindset means no worries. :p
Lindsey @ 5.03PM

The world is quiet today.
After class, I ate at Flo’s, and on the way back through campus, I walked under a canopy of trees. It seemed like even nature was silent. It’s been cloudy and windy today, and there’s just been this… feeling in the air. Like anticipation. Like the world is watching and waiting. There’s hardly any people out and if they are, they don’t speak. It’s really an eerie sort of feeling. It’s been a day of inner reflection. I keep thinking about where my life is going and the fact that I can never make a decision. I took the SIGI test, the one that’s supposed to help you find the right career, and I left more confused than when I started. Thinking, I realized I’ve really already made that decision, by majoring in chemistry. So I’m just going to go with it and see where it leads me. I guess I’m not going to worry about it. Which is weird. First I want to concentrate on school and finances more than love, and now I’ve stopped worrying about this. I guess this is growth, but it’s strange.
I had a long night last night. I didn’t really sleep much, and I had a long talk with God. I’ve realized that my life really isn’t in my own hands, and instead of worrying about every little detail I should just trust him for once. So maybe things will get better.
I’ve been told by a few adeptives (what I call people who show a little psychic ability through their religious beliefs) that they have a feeling I’m going to be taken advantage of. I also had this feeling a few days ago so I’m really watching it. I’ve been paying more attention to coincidences lately, like it says in The Celestine Prophecy (Awesome book. You must read it.). The other day I kept getting messages from different people to listen to the song “Goodbye to You” by Michelle Branch. It turns out that the song fit perfectly into my current situation. So listen to what the universe is trying to tell you!
Lindsey @ 5.25PM

I am so sad…
I want to reach out to him so badly. Everything in me is crying out for it, but I just… can’t. This hysterical crying part of me is begging to get out, to do whatever it takes because I miss him and love him so much. But I can’t. Just when I think I’m going to cave in something holds me back. I don’t know if it’s my own stubborn-ness, or some higher purpose, but…
It hurts so badly inside. And it hurts even more to let it out. I think I’m going to start packing. No, I can’t. But I will anyway.
Lindsey @ 7.56PM

The sadness envelopes me. There’s no part of me that it doesn’t touch. The first time Randy broke my heart, he was afraid of commitment, so he stopped seeing me. For a month and a half I was an empty shell… with empty tears… and empty pain. Now I’m full… full of everything, and that only makes it hurt worse. Is this love? If I had 6 months to live I would move down there tomorrow, and spend every second with him. But I have more than that, and I have to plan things… but i’m so sad. If I go down there, and we get married… what if I make the biggest mistake of my life? But if I stay here, and let him slip away… what if I make the biggest mistake of my life?
Lindsey @ 11.01PM

O… kay. You know that sadness I was feeling? It’s now replaced with 1/3 anger, 1/3 relief, and 1/3 just plain wonder at how weird life is. Turns out, Randy doesn’t even want me to come down there. I can’t believe it. Well, at least that decision is made, and I don’t have to worry about it anymore. I feel… surprisingly not sad at all. I feel like I just want to laugh and laugh until I can’t anymore. God, life is funny.
Lindsey @ 11.58PM

Oh, my lord, it’s April Fool’s Day!!! That means only one thing: a new layout! Well, it also means that you can trick people… but, I really don’t have anything good. I could tell Dan that I’m leaving school… I could tell my mom that I’ve decided I’m moving to Houston… I could tell Randy that Josh and I hooked up. Hehe, that would be a good one. I could tell Amber all kinds of stuff, since she’s NOT HERE!!!! I still miss you Amber. *sniff*
Anyway, new layout. I really really like it. It’s very weird, and I think it’s kinda ugly, but I still love it. ^-^ It’s pretty much all picture tubes and weird effects. The image started with some little boxes. I’m kind of proud of myself. I still have a few kinks to work out.
I’m going to be making some changes to the different sites, but very slowly so I don’t shock anyone. ;p No, really it’s because I don’t have a lot of free time. But I’m going to get rid of the music site, and sort of integrate it into a site about my writings. I’m not going to have the list of mp3’s anymore, though, because it changes too often to update correctly. And I really am going to put up the artography site. Soon. I promise. Bye for now! Tell me what you think as soon as I put up the little comment box! Ciao!
Lindsey @ 6.17PM

Hehehe… the girl that always takes a hot shower and shuts the doors so the bathroom is like a sauna? I went to the bathroom and she was in there, and I opened the doors really wide! Mahahaa… okay, it doesn’t sound like much but I thought it was really sneaky of me.
Lindsey @ 6.48PM

Oh… God. What have I done? I guess I dug my own hole, that’s what. I’m still happy, this is still a good day, but I just really hurt somebody’s feelings. Dang it. Why am I so weak-willed? Please forgive me. I’m going to go kneel and pray now.
Lindsey @ 10.24PM

Um… okay. I’m not still happy, it’s not still a good day. I’ve just said goodbye to Randy. Permanently. Forever. As in, we’re never going to talk to each other ever again. Why you ask? Because when we talk, it hurts too much. I miss him too badly. Whenever I talk to him, or see his picture in that stupid silver frame looking all cute, I want to move down to Houston and marry him. And this is bad. I have my own life and I can’t let my feelings screw it up. So… I did the only thing that I knew to do. Maybe it’s the wrong decision. Maybe you’re reading this and thinking that I’m crazy. You’re probably right, but this is truly the only thing I can do that I definetely know the outcome. All the other options are filled with uncertainty. And I can’t deal with uncertainty. Not now. I just… can’t.
Lindsey @ 11.47PM

“Empath”

I remember walking down the street today
And thinking, I am happy
At this moment I am happy without a doubt
And it was true. I felt life was wonderful.
I was carefree, I was bouyant.

In the recluse of my room I wrote down my happiness
Every detail, the whims and bobs
And how I didn’t need anybody but myself.
The familiar fear crept over me
But I thought, no… I will let myself be happy this time
I will not fear happiness.
So with a tentative step and a wary glance
I plunged into happiness, headfirst
And I remember feeling as if a great weight had been lifted.

The day wore on, and still I felt happy
I felt alive, I felt complete
And then through outside feats, I began a spiral
A spiral down, down… deeper down into the place I know so well.
My life is happy, but others are miserable.
I fell down with the thoughts of others in my head.
I drowned in The Death of Ivan Ilyich,
And the crazy/beautiful people that live in this world.
Empathy’s pungent odor fills me now, and I reflect on my own life.
My own sorrows and joys that are always with me,
A breeze that wraps around and surrounds me when the sun is shining down.
Lindsey @ 10:58PM

Um… okay. Here’s the first sane entry since… well, since a long time ago. My trip to Houston was wonderful! I didn’t want to leave. I want to go back. It’s hard to want to come back to school that you don’t like, a room that you can’t live in, and a job that has little rewards. Especially right after you see Houston with its wonderful wages, lovely stores, and beautiful, cheap apartments. But what can I do? I still have two years left on my scholarship. Yay. Feel my excitement.
Lindsey @ 9.28PM

Sometimes the fear catches me and I cannot breathe.
Sometimes I think: “What have I done? What am I doing? Where am I going? What am I thinking?”
And then there are storms like these that make me feel that I have a place in the world.

Here’s a little poem I wrote today:

Be happy for your young, strong bones…
for your shining face and your glittering eyes…

I watched a shell on the ocean today
What once housed a vibrant life is now only an empty vessel,
A traveling piece of dead skin.
The waves tossed her high up in the air,
And brought her down to the depths of the ocean
And still she goes, intact,
unbreaking in spite of the trauma.

The shoreline glows in the light of the sunset.
Thousands of broken shells reflect the giver of life.
And I reach down and pick up the last unbroken shell…
Lindsey @ 10.05PM

There is something about people with online journals.
We spend countless hours in front of a computer, typing every aspect of our lives down for the world to see. We believe that somehow, if we analyze every detail, that it will become simpler. That we, as writers, as people, will begin to understand exactly what is going on if we can just read it, a permanent record of our daily actions, responses, and feelings.
But what we fail to grasp is the amazing intricacy of our lives. We think that things are simple, and become even simpler when we write them down. But the truth is, we will never escape that complexity, because it winds around us and it entangles our very souls.
I have truly seen that intricacy today. Reading about other people’s lives shows me how much we are all connected, in some way, and yet all so drastically different: in our feelings, in our situations, and in what we choose to do with this life that we have been given.
I seriously hope that from now on I can continue looking at this big picture, because it is only this way that I can see how every decision changes everyone’s life.
Lindsey @ 12:55PM

Oh, boy. Are you ready for this? This is kind of a trend lately in online journals. A hundred random things about yourself. So are you ready? Here goes. I will give you a cookie if you read ALL of these. I’m serious about the cookie.
1. I can listen to a new song I like almost 20 times repeatedly until I get sick of it.
2. I have a chicken pox scar just to the right (my right) of my bellybutton.
3. I believe in aliens.
4. Every time I go outside at night and the moon is out, I have to look at it.
5. Every time someone else looks at their watch, I have to look at mine.
6. Some people might call me obsessive compulsive.
7. I have always wanted a tattoo and at least one abnormal peircing.
8. I didn’t pass my first driver’s test because apparently, I’m a “California stopper.”
9. I have never taken driver’s ed.
10. I have never gotten a ticket, except the one I got in the wreck for not having insurance. But that was dismissed. With no cost. 😀
11. I have seen the movie “The Fifth Element” over 70 times.
12. One time when I was in the 9th grade, I was in Bath and Body Works and I took a little charm off of one of the little nail polishes. That is the only thing I’ve stolen in my entire life. Well, when I was 5, I took some gum at the grocery store, but my dad made me put it back.
13. Usually Friday the 13th is one of my luckier days.
14. There’s this black cat that has followed me throughout my entire life. It always has the same bright golden eyes and it stares at me. A nice, long stare right into my head. I have come to the conclusion that it reincarnates itself to follow me.
14. I have a zebra striped fuzzy tank top that I have never worn but every once in a while I take it out of the closet and look at it while I decide wether to go out and party or not. It’s my party shirt.
15. I have always wanted to play basketball for a team.
16. I am 5’1″. So, no basketball. I’m small but I’m quick.
17. When I was 8 or 9 I was on a softball team called the Shockerz. I always sat on the bench. I played maybe twice. But I do remember how jealous I was because my best friend was on a team that had hot pink and black for their colors. Ours were red and black.
18. I have always disliked the color red.
19. I have a huge crush on Harrison Ford. But only when he’s Indiana Jones.
20. Dr. Jones, no time for love.
21. I have never had any type of alcoholic beverage except a few drinks of Zima once.
22. When I was in the seventh grade, I tried smoking but I hated it. I tried it because everyone told me not to, and they would always talk about how kids thought it was cool but it really wasn’t. I thought this was just a big conspiracy so I tried it. They were right.
23. The only time I’ve ever REALLY seen the stars is one night when my dad had to drive some house plans to this guy that lived in the country. The sky was so filled with stars that I could barely see the space in between. That was the second most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
24. The most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen is the moonlight reflecting off the top of a layer of clouds.
25. The second most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen is my nephew Benjamin right after he was born.
26. The third is my mother.
27. The fourth is my grandfather’s face as he was passing away.
28. The fifth is the look on my brother’s face while he was looking at me and holding me right after I was born.
29. When I was in middle school, a girl named Autumn Harrison died in a plane crash because her grandfather flew even though it was bad weather. Ever since then, I cannot trust a person over 40 who owns a plane.
30. My trust limit is two. After you break my heart twice, you will never completely regain my trust. I will always hold you at least a little ways from my heart.
31. Only three people in this world have broken my heart twice. They were all men. They know who they are.
32. The only time I have ever let a guy come between a friendship is with Lindsey Matthews my sophomore year of high school. It was Marc Herringshaw. It was not worth it.
33. My favorite TV show of all time is Roswell. It moves emotions in me I didn’t even know I had.
34. I feel much more than most people do. When I was a child, people would always tell me I was too sensitive. I have always been able to tell what people are feeling.
35. I have only recently, in the past 3 years, usually been able to tell what people are thinking.
36. I have a very highly developed intuition. There are some days when nothing surprises me because I know what’s going to happen a split second before it happens. It’s like the film of the day is running a little faster in my head than in life.
37. I have never used a Ouija board. But one time when I was at a sleepover, all the other girls used one except for me and Kiki, because we felt it was evil. It probably is.
38. I am rarely spontaneous. I have to plan everything. And if I don’t write it down, I won’t remember to do it.
39. I make friends slowly, but once I am your friend, my loyalty is stronger than most things in this world.
40. The first movie I ever saw in the theater was Bambi. I was 2 years old. I don’t remember it.
41. Movies are extremely important to me. They’re an escape and an artificial emotion generator. I work in two movie theaters and it’s the best job I could ever imagine.
42. I have always wanted to be an astronaut.
43. I am almost completely blind in my left eye. I have amblyopia but you could never tell by looking at me.
44. I still have two of my baby teeth. They have never fallen out.
45. One night when I was about 9 I couldn’t sleep so I went to the living room and turned on the TV and started watching an episode of Flipper. My brother woke up and made me go back to sleep and I have always wondered how that episode ended.
46. One time when I was 7 I was using Avon’s Skin So Soft after my bath to soften my feet but I spilled it in the sink. So I put my feet in the sink and stood up and slipped right back out and against the bathroom door and onto the floor. My mom had to break open the door and rescue me: completely naked, covered in Skin So Soft and bawling my eyes out.
47. One day, again about 7 (that was a destructive year for me) I was looking out the window and rocking back and forth on my knees on my brother’s suitcase. The suitcase fell backwards and my upper lip and teeth hit the windowsill. I tore the corner of my mouth and had to get 5 stitches, most of those in my mouth. There’s still a little scar on my lip and teeth imprints in the windowsill.
48. When I was born, the doctor said I would be tall for my age. He lied.
49. Also when I was born, I was really red and they had to wrap me in a blue blanket because they were out of pink. So in my first picture I look like a little Cherokee boy.
50. I am 1/126th Cherokee but I’m over a quarter Irish so I’m extremely pale skinned.
51. I don’t really know the rest of my heritage because my dad didn’t really know his father, but my last name should have been Howard.
52. I am extremely boy crazy. Always have been. Always will be. For having little confidence in myself, I am an extremely big flirt.
53. I used to be very happy and outgoing when I was a child, but when I was 8 my stepmom verbally and physically abused me and tried to kill me. For a very long time after that, I was afraid of public places and I had almost 20 panic attacks a day. I was back to happy and outgoing by my sophomore year of high school, but the being afraid in public is just now fading away. In the past two years, I have just begun to learn how to love myself.
54. I am totally independent. One of my goals is to have a beautiful house furnished with Pottery Barn stuff, and a nice car, and a wonderful career. And to have gotten these things all by myself. 🙂
55. I want to wait at least a year after I get out of college to get married. And I may not want kids. Ever.
56. If I do have a child, I want to be 24 when it happens to hold up the tradition. My brother was 12 when I was born. I was 12 and he was 24 when his first son was born. When I’m 24, Benjamin will be 12 and then I can have a child.
57. These are the kinds of things I think about. My brain is very active and if I’m not doing or thinking of at least 3 things at once, I feel bored.
58. My IQ is 146 and I made a 30 on my ACT’s. For the elementary school entrance exams, I spelled elephant correctly at 4 years old. It’s because my mom taught me to read when I was 3. At the age of 5, I owned 312 books. I counted.
59. When I was in the first grade, I got out in a spelling bee on the word “guess.” In the back row behind me, a 5th grader was wearing a Guess shirt.
60. In elementary school, I was known as the brain and the crybaby.
61. In middle school, I was known as the nerd.
62. In high school, I was known as the band nerd and the little cute odd girl.
63. In college, I am the brain and the hot girl.
64. I have a list of qualities that I look for in a guy: tall, dark hair, blue or green eyes, brainy, funny, not really athletic but loves the outdoors, willing to talk about the mysteries of the universe.
65. There’s one quality about a couple of guys that’s recently been brought to my attention and it blows my mind: they remember everything I say.
66. I tell my friend Daniel everything about my little crushes. He can’t believe that I get surprised when guys treat me how a woman’s supposed to be treated. He asks who it was that screwed me up so bad that I have no confidence. The sad thing is that I can’t remember. I’m starting to be confident though. I’ve realized my hottie potential.
67. I’ve decided that it doesn’t matter what’s happened in the past, only what’s in the future. Every day gets better.
68. My mother is the most influential person in my life and I am awed by how wonderful she is and how much she loves me every day. I don’t tell her this enough.
69. I got a full scholarship to my college. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have been able to go to college. I look at this as my second greatest acheivement.
70. My third greatest acheivement was being drum major and actually pulling through it. That has been the toughest time in my life so far.
71. My greatest acheivement is living, and continuously growing spiritually.
72. Spirituality to me does not mean God or religion. Spirituality to me is how I perceive the world, my place in it, and how it all connects. God is included in the world, and religion is how I express my spirituality. One of my greatest pet peeves is people who believe their religion is the sum of their spirituality. It’s been my experience that each person is different, and their spirituality is a mixture of different religions.
73. When I was 11, I created a language. The word for moon was “leto.” It was only after that that I discovered that leto was the name of one of the Greek moon goddesses. That name has been close to my heart ever since.
74. My first real crush was in the 6th grade, and it was Brian Reid. But I told him his best friend was cute and I don’t think he’s ever forgiven me. I have always wondered what would have happened if I hadn’t said that. One time when I was a junior I was in Lowe’s and I smelled Brian, just a passing scent wafting by and ever since then, I’ve known that I really screwed something up.
75. A few years ago, my 7th grade Civics teacher died. The things I remember from his class are my best friend Shayna and I always teasing him, and how he would always call me “squirrel bait.”
76. The first time I ever met my greatest friend ever, Elizabeth Okey, I was in Ms. Rob’s English class and she was wearing a plaid skirt and she had a fuzzy cow planner. She was having a very animated conversation and I thought she was the oddest thing I’ve ever seen. Ever since then, we’ve been soul sisters.
77. The first memory I have is when I was 3 and I was outside going next door to play on our next door neighbor’s piano.
78. My mom says I first tried to walk at 7 months, but I fell down and hurt myself and I didn’t try to walk again until the 4th of July, three days before my first birthday.
79. I have two aunts and an uncle on my mom’s side, but my uncle was blown up in an accident before I was born.
80. I have a thing for 7’s. It’s kind of a recurring theme in my life. I was born on 7-7-82 and I weighed 7lbs and 11ozs.
81. I have never been out of the country, but I would love to visit Japan.
82. I would like to meet my soul mate, but not right now. Frankly, right now, I’m a little scared of a serious relationship.
83. This Spring Break I’m going to Houston and it will be the very first vacation I’ve had during Spring Break. I knew if I went anywhere EVER it would have to be of my own accord.
84. I can play the flute, the drums, the xylophone/bells/marimba, the piano, and sort of the violin. I can also sing and direct. I have over 1,000 mp3’s. I love music.
85. I’ve always wanted to take a martial arts class, ever since I saw my dad in his class when I was a little girl.
86. The Herringshaw’s are a curse. It’s amazing how crazy they make your life. Resist as long as you can.
87. I love Japanese art and kimonos. My favorite artist is Hiroshige and I hope to collect kimonos someday.
88. I collect manga, moons, stars, anything Hello Kitty, Sailor Moon, Roswell, The Fifth Element, or Japanese. I also like purple things, leopard patterned things, and things with cats on them.
89. I’ve only ever killed one animal, and that was a dog with my car. It was a golden lab and I cried my eyes out.
90. In the 9th grade, all my friends were into HTML, this weird code you could make web pages with. I learned the basics from two of my friends, very HTML-adept people, Melissa and Beth, and in a short amount of time, I surpassed their web page making skills and I didn’t even own a computer.
91. I’ve had a few people over time that I’ve extremely disliked, but there’s one person that if I ever saw her, I’m terrified that I won’t be able to stop myself from spitting in her face because of what she’s done. I seriously hope she realizes the seriousness of her actions and has begged God for forgiveness.
92. The TV character I most identify with is a mix between Special Agent Dana Scully and Liz Parker.
93. When I was a junior, I felt that I hadn’t done enough crazy things as a teenager so I rounded up my next-door neighbor Katie and we hid in the back of her dad’s truck and threw sticks at passing cars. That lasted about 2 seconds, and then Katie and I ran faster than any mortal has ever run, and that annoying fence that we could never seem to get over was jumped quicker than a change in Oklahoma weather.
94. The freakiest thing that has ever happened to me was one hot summer night last year, I woke completely up from a deep sleep with a horrible feeling. I paced for 20 minutes and prayed harder than I’ve ever prayed before. I didn’t know what I was praying for, but I had the distinct feeling that I would find out someday. A week later I learned that that very night, at that very time, my old next-door neighbor Katie fell off a car and cracked her skull and nearly died. I will always believe that through my prayers, God saved her life.
95. My first boyfriend was Chris Liebig in the 6th grade.
96. I’ve had 11 boyfriends. It’s about to be 12. (Yes, Eric, I counted you.)
97. I’ve almost been hit by lightning three times in my life. One time I was by the lake in a storm and all my hair stood on end. The second time I was in front of my house and there was no sign of a storm, but I got a funny feeling and seconds later, lightning struck a house a block up from ours. The third time, I was in the Hastings parking lot in the rain and I was wearing flip-flops while standing in a big puddle. I felt a little strange and the person I was with started backing up and pointing at my hair. It was completely on end. I got in the car slowly. Disaster averted.
98. The lightning thing might have something to do with the fact that I can hear certain kinds of electricity. I can always tell when a TV is on, even if there’s no picture or sound. I can hear it. I can tell when somebody turns on a TV in my building because there’s a burst of that electric sound. And I swear I once heard a static-y conversation someone was having on a cordless phone, while I was next door.
99. I believe in a universal energy, much like the unified field theory that Einstein was working on. I think everything is made up of energy, and it’s part of an underlying force that explains why the usual physics laws don’t work on normal atoms sometimes. I also believe this energy can be manipulated with the power of the mind. Of course, I don’t have that power, nor do most normal humans. But that’s why people invented magic. To trick the mind into manipulating the energy around them.
100. The final one: my top 10 favorite movies of all time, in order. The Fifth Element, The Three Amigos, National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation, Moulin Rouge, The Star Wars saga, The Jerk, The Breakfast Club, Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, The Matrix, and Close Encounters of the Third Kind. 🙂
I hope you enjoyed that as much as I did. That took me an hour and a half. Now, tell me where I should send the cookies.
Lindsey @ 3.00AM

A dream: I’m on the top of a building, on the edge. It’s night, the wind is whipping my hair and I’m looking straight ahead. I want to look down but I can’t. All of a sudden I’m a different person, someone from my past. Why can’t I let go of her? What is it about her that haunts me? Will I never be rid of her? Or is it that I don’t feel I’m strong enough to let her go? I look down as her. The street, miles below, is oblivious to me. I’m wearing this ridiculous dress and my hair is done, the way I always remember her. I feel the fear in her heart and I feel all the mistakes I’ve made as her. I know what it’s like and it grips me. I feel lost inside her, or maybe she’s lost inside me. I can’t tell if I’m still myself, or if I’ve become her, or if we’ve been the same person all along. I don’t feel suicidal but I feel the need to jump. I can’t. I don’t have the courage. So I sit on the edge of the building and I watch the cars go by and the moon pass across the sky.
Lindsey @ 11:38PM

7 days until Spring Break, 3 classes missed
Okay, so much for not missing classes. I’ve gone through a few changes, though. I’m dropping the Organic Chemistry lecture. So I’ll have very few classes but I’ll be able to concentrate on them more and make A’s! Yay!
Last night’s KPhi Formal was so much fun!!! We left around 4 and went to this girl Beth’s house and got ready, then on to the church. It was such a blast, I danced the whole time. Then afterwards me, Suzanne, Rachel, and Jill went to IHOP and cracked ourselves up. I fell asleep in the car on the way home and crawled into bed about 3AM. I slept until 2 today comfortably. Extremely tired, but extremely happy.
I realized something today. I have learned a great life lesson from each of my best friends throughout life.
Kayla (1st-3rd grade) – Good friends are almost like sisters.
Amanda (6th-7th grade) – You shouldn’t care what people think of you.
Kiki (7th-11th grade) – You can always laugh, no matter what’s going on.
Beth (9th grade-present) – Don’t let people walk all over you, be assertive.
Amber (soph.-present) – People usually love it when you are yourself.
Suzanne (soph.-present) – Always reach out to people and show them you care.
So thanks friends, for these beautiful life lessons… I hope I touched your lives as much as you touched mine.
Lindsey @ 4.08PM

I’ve started this a couple of times, but I ended up not really knowing what to say, so I decided to just say whatever. I can’t really explain what I’m feeling, I’d like to share it but I just really don’t know how. Like most things.
Coal Miner’s Daughter is on. I can remember watching this movie from when I was just a little girl. This movie always makes me realize how important my roots are. How unstable life is, but how we always have ourselves, and our memories. It doesn’t matter where my future goes, because I remember my past. My life gets a more stable foundation with every day that passes. But now I’m rambling.
“Patsy always said, ‘Lil gal, you gotta run yur own life!’ But my life’s runnin’ me.”
“Stop a growlin’ Doo, you sound like a ole’ bare or sommin.”
My Organic Chem lab midterm is tomorrow. I wish I could go to sleep. Maybe I’m almost there.
Lindsey @ 1.01AM

“What? How could I still be a virgin with moves like that? Um… well… um… er…”

I have way too much time on my hands.
Lindsey @ 1.54AM