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Ah, spring… the time when a young man’s fancy turns to military endeavors.

Happy V-Day. I guess. I really actually like Valentine’s Day, whether I’m with anyone or not, but a lot of lonely people today have been biting my head off for smiling. But, actually, when I stop to think about it, a lot of things in my life suck. I think they’re getting better though. I hope. Off to work… maybe I’ll have an epiphany on the way to work and be happy. My hair’s in a ponytail. That makes me happy. 🙂

Lindsey @ 5:44PM

OH MY GOD!!!!! MAX IS DEAD!!!

I can’t believe it. I didn’t think they would actually kill him off. My poor Max. *sniff* Actually, I’m not crying. Last week’s episode was a tearjerker, but now I’m just like, “No! No! Nooooo!” And there’s not another episode until the 26th! And this is the last season! If they make him stay dead and just finish it all sad, I’m gonna be pissed! Liz should bring him back with her alien powers or by the power of her love for him or something! AAAAACK!

Okay, sorry. Back to the real world. But you know I just love that show so much. *sigh* I have a huge Organic Chemistry test tomorrow so I have to go study! Ciao!

Lindsey @ 9.33PM

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about time. The past, the future, where I have been and where I will be. Yesterday I had to find some pictures because my scanner’s working again, and I came across so many high school memories. Some make me terribly sad, others make me glad I’m done with it, and still others…

I used to feel like I didn’t belong, and I was never a part of these people that I saw every day, but now I realize that I was a part of them, because they were a part of me. So it’s impossible to think sad thoughts when I think of high school. Only happy memories. 🙂

And now I’m thinking of my future. I can’t wait to be something great. I just know I will be, because I believe it and I’m willing to work hard and put all my effort into it. I figured out my schedule for the rest of my time here at NSU, and with the Environmental Science minor, it’s going to be a lot easier because most of the required classes, I’ve already taken with the Chem major. So I’m pretty happy. If I can just get through this tough semester, it should be my last hard one. This week is going to be especially hard though, because I have 4 tests and I work Mon, Wed, Thurs, and Sat. I can’t believe how many hours I work this week. She must really like me. ^-^

Lindsey @ 1.10PM

I love this song: Trouble by Coldplay. It’s just beautiful.

Life is slightly better because I have a new perspective on things. I think it’s because I’ve created a plan to make me happy. Well, actually I just picked the direction I want to go. I prayed for direction, I got it the very same day, in the form of a speaker at the prayer meeting I went to. He was talking about the universe as a whole, and it hit me: I want to be an astronomer. It’s what I’ve always thought of ever since I was little. People always say that. “I knew what I wanted to do since the age of 7 or so.” But I never thought I knew. Until I realized I always looked up at the night sky and wondered what was out there. I had just always put it out of my head because no college around here offers it, and my mom always said that would be a horrible choice because of the bad pay. But I don’t care. I love it, and that’s what I’m going to do. Obviously, NSU doesn’t have an astronomy major, so I’m going to finish the Chemistry and minor in Environmental Science, and then go to OU. 🙂 I’m excited.

Hmm… maybe I could work for NASA someday. I still want to do that FBI Internship though. That would be awesome. We’ll see how it pans out.

Yay easy taxes with TeleFile. Let’s just hope they come before I have to pay that nice citation. Yech.

Lindsey @ 8.11PM

*hack, hack*

Bleh…. I didn’t go to any classes today, but Suz said I didn’t owe her any dollars because of the way I sounded on the phone. Thanks, Suzanne. I have to go to work today, too. Oh, well, it’s only for 3 hours. I feel like crap.

I have three comforts:
1) chicken soup
2) Halls cough drops
3) my mommy took my quiz and got a 100!! ^-^ She loves me.

Lindsey @ 4.44 (make a wish!)

New month, new layout. I love monthly turnovers. Have you ever gotten the feeling that everyone’s prettier, more well-dressed, and a better person than you, even though you’re actually okay? Well, that’s how I was feeling today, until me and Suzanne hit bottom. The only way to go is up, so we cracked ourselves up til we felt better. ^-^

So now I’m pretty happy, I’ve come up with a new idea for a website: artology, a collection of my web design and photography and art, things like that. I’ve come up with a great layout for it, based on a Wonder Woman picture. (Don’t ask.) Anyway, I should have that up hopefully today or tomorrow, because I’ve planned the whole thing out. I wish my scanner worked. That might help with the pictures.

lindsey @ 4.10PM

I am so happy!! Roswell made me happy again. I haven’t watched it in so long. This week’s episode was kind of stupid, but the previews for next week look amazing. Finally, we get to figure out this weird Liz/alien thing! I don’t know what it is, but this show always makes me feel better about life in general. Life seems happy again when you get reassurance that it’s okay to dream. I wish I could capture this smile on my face and keep it forever.
Lindsey @ 9:32PM

I can’t believe it. My car has been sitting in the wrecking place for so long that the total charge is $354.38. And that’s just today. Tomorrow it will be $15 higher. But I’m going to sell it to a salvage yard and use that to pay the wrecker and help buy insurance. This whole mess is just crazy. I wish I had a lawyer in the family to give me advice. I don’t know if I have to buy insurance for the totaled car that I will never drive again, or if I should get multi-vehicle insurance, or just get it for my mom’s car, or what.
At least I got my internet hooked up. It disconnected Friday for no apparent reason. But now it works again!! Yay, free NSU computer people. I’m working on the redesigned version of this layout. It will look much better, it’s bugging me with this high resolution. I actually might design a photographer’s website for her. She needs one, I can do that, she can pay me. Sounds perfect. 🙂
The job was really great. It made me miss Carmike though, and all the people there. But the box was much more lavish than the little dinky Carmike one. This theater has a computer system in box, so when it’s slow, I can play Minesweeper and Solitaire. :p
Lindsey @ 5:29PM

Wow… The talk of the town is apparently The Bloggies. As I read these and vote (My personal fave picks overall are Wil Wheaton dot Net and Daily Sardonicism. <– She’s from Tulsa. ^-^) I wondered, “Why don’t I ever get something like this?” And then the answer came to me, as if from a revelation: I don’t ever talk or update, I switch designs too much, my content is extremely low, and I talk like a frickin teenager. Oh, wait… I am. That’s still no excuse. I’ll be 20 in July. Grr.
Whatever. The point is, I’m gonna try to get better at this. I promise. Hopefully soon. I’m just extremely busy. And I just got a job! Yay! Working at the theater here in Tahlequah. So now I have two jobs, both in theaters… Hmm. I start tonight, I’ll tell you how it goes.
As far as love life, I’m even more confused than before. You know what? I’m really a fool sometimes. Please don’t ever push something you’re not ready for, or that you’re not even sure you want. Cause now… I think I’m in a little over my head here. At least I had the backbone enough to stop things before they got worse. Geez. I’m tired of this doublespeak. I think I should just get some anonymous domain and blog all my worst horrible secrets, including all the names and dirty details. Of course, I wouldn’t tell anybody what the address was. Maybe the unsuspecting public would find it and be enthralled, but my family and friends can’t know this stuff. I just want to write it, I don’t want it out in the open.

I am so bad. I haven’t gone to class in three days. I keep waiting for my life to calm down, but maybe it’s me that needs to direct it. The last words of Fight Club keep echoing in my head: “You just met me at a really strange time in my life.”
Lindsey @ 12:49PM

Hey everyone! I bet you’re all like, “Dang, where’d Lindsey go?” Well, I’m here now. Again. I really haven’t had much computer time over the break and they just hooked up my internet in my new room today! That’s right, I moved in with Gina. I’m not an RA anymore. I got my grades from last semester and they weren’t anything to even be remotely proud of. So, I decided to quit the RA thing and concentrate on school. So, anyway…
Once again many things have happened since I’ve last written. I feel like a completely new person. One thing that I want to get out is that I don’t have a crush on anyone. I can always tell when I don’t because I build people up in my mind that I used to have a crush on. I guess to make my brain think I like them again. But today I have realized that I don’t like anyone. It’ll take some getting used to.
Another thing is that I’m kind of depressed. Not really that bad, but… I’m not happy. I always told myself that if I found myself in a situation during my life where I realized I wasn’t happy, I would get out of there and fix it. But I can’t right now. I feel so trapped here in little Tahlequah, partly because of my scholarship and partly because I have no money or car. I had a wreck last Friday, and although it wasn’t a very bad wreck, my little tin can of a car was totaled. So… no car, no money, no job, just a scholarship, a room, and 17 hours of hard classes. Yay. Feel my ecstasy.
But my brush with death has left me feeling very open and apathetic. I’m going to tell people how I feel and not care what they think about it. So Marc, if you’re reading this, hey, I used to have a big big crush on you. But not anymore because obviously, I haven’t seen you in over a year, and I’m not looking for a relationship right now. I just want to be friends, no matter what certain psychos *coughericcough* say. 😀

I feel so much better.

Now… anyway. Hopefully I’ll be updating more and I’ll have a new layout up soon because I got Paint Shop Pro 7 for Christmas!!! Yay!! Thanks Dad! Hmm. Maybe I’ll keep this layout. I kind of like it. Of course, I’ll modify it a bit. I switched to a higher resolution and it looks funny now. It still looks good on 800×600 though. Alright, that’s enough for now. Bye!
Lindsey @ 11:36AM